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Slow Bloom

by mesmi

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1.
like the turn of the seasons the bloom from spring the dogwood blossoms falling at our feet like the heat from summer the longer days, lingering like light-time lovers reluctantly surrendering you'll fade from my mind, given time
2.
Evergreen 04:02
decidedly deciduous opposite in silhouette i’m the east, you’re the west romeo and juliet ‘cept cupid went and did me wrong only one hit by the poison arrow cross-eyed star-crossed gazing it’s you i’m stuck craving watch me pine away like an evergreen i just pine away like an evergreen oh you with your gemstone leaves change with the month so easily master of seasonal feelings king of ephemeral dealings yeah cupid went and did me wrong only one hit by the poison arrow cross-eyed star-crossed gazing for you i’m stuck craving watch me pine away like an evergreen i just pine away like an evergreen caressing your name and forgetting your face are you my sunshine or darkest shade caressing your name and forgetting your face why’m i eternally in the same place? i just pine away like an evergreen oh watch me pine away like an evergreen an evergreen, i’m an evergreen an evergreen
3.
Orchestrate 04:04
used to always orchestrate it to run into you, to run into you emotion’s somethin’ crazy, ain’t it? honey, we can’t disprove what it makes us do you're the conductor, i'm the strings to your every move resonating first chair in your grand symphony, last one facing the melody of how I wanted you ; oh how I wanted you hating myself for twisting, turning losing out to every yearning trying to be something you might want every note in every second, every beat in every measure playing to an audience long gone so I'm leaving your orchestra too many years I stayed in orbit always circling, circling around a magic false and jaded oh such a brilliant sun, hard as I tried to run you're the conductor, i'm the strings to your every move resonating hating myself for twisting, turning losing out to every yearning trying to be something you might want every note in every second, every beat in every measure playing to an audience long gone so i'm leaving your orchestra oh i'm leaving your orchestra o wait - play back the tape, go all the way now notice in the opening scene, who's making moves from the very beginning was you who spotted me, set up the board, every chess piece and lured me into your fantasy yeah you . . . you, ya used to always orchestrate it you, used to always ( used to always ) and i hated myself for twisting, turning losing out to every yearning trying to be something you might want every note in every second, every beat in every measure playing to an audience long gone so i'm leaving your orchestra oh, i'm leaving your orchestra ~ o i gotta leave, i gotta leave i got to leave i'm leaving your orchestra
4.
C.L.Y.G. 03:40
been here so many times before something always keeps us coming back for more but i just can't let you go, no i just can't let you go keep running through the same ol’ rhymes like a broken tape jammed on rewind still i just can't let you go (no no) i just can't let you go cause i’d been thinking lately, possibly just maybe this shimmer between us could be something perfect two broken pieces rising off the floor mm just right like water to the shore yeah you broke in like light through the longest tunnel i knew mirage or the real thing don't matter when your heartstrings are tied funny thing, — i was good with me ‘fore you came along, jumped right in made it hard to see a life without you again been here so many times before something always keeps us coming back for more but i just can't let you go, no i just can't let you go keep running through the same ol’ rhymes like a broken tape jammed on rewind still i just can't let you go (no no) i just can't let you go, but nowadays you take, all the things that i say keep misunderstanding, counting up the damage seems like every move you're itchin' for a fight when i, i just wanna love you right and every time it's harder; distance, it gets farther straining out to touch ya, you give me cold shoulder make me question what i am and what i'm worth then turn around tell me, “love's not supposed to hurt” i know you'll be coming round and i know you'll only bring me down even so, same old story i know, i can’t let you, let you i know you'll be coming round and i know you'll only bring me down even so, same old story i know, i can’t let you, let you go been here so many times before something always keeps us coming back for more but i just can't let you go, no i just can't let you go
5.
well feelings have no reason or rhyme i gotta place my trust in seasons & time that one day soon, some day you will fade from my mind feelings have no reason or rhyme i gotta place my trust in seasons & time yeah one day soon, eventually you'll fade from my mind, my mind, my mind from my mind, my mind, my mind given time, given time, given time, given time given time, given time, given time just give it time
6.
draw your x's draw your guns can we just call this even? drop our blades sheathe our tongues take a moment from this deadly standoff i’m not trying to play any games If you see me pulling away i’m falling too far and slipping too fast into the crash, the crash so i’m holding back even as i hold on to all the things you are what if i'm not enough or the fire flies away? left burning up in your atmosphere in my dreams you’d reappear for years and years and years and years not trying to play any games i just find certain words hard to say when i’m falling too far and slipping too fast into the crash, the crash so i’m holding back even as i hold on to all the things you are and i've been waiting on forever for forever taking two steps forward, now i’m ten steps back, oh gentle, have patience going over i’m cradling your heart as we give in to that falling too far and slipping too fast into the crash, the crash so i’m holding back even as i hold on to all the things you are draw your x's draw your guns can we just call this even
7.
Two Roots 03:59
two roots of the same tree are we same heart two interlocking beats twine just to twine with me eye to eye ; cheek to cheek parentheses inside parentheses may we always be and i’d go to a thousand churches just to marry you, just to marry you i’d walk through a thousand furnaces just to be with you, just to be with you cause i need nothing more than to walk right at your side and all i’d ever want is to love you my whole life breathe in, entirety found exhale, our phantoms plummet to the ground twine just to twine with me eye to eye ; cheek to cheek parentheses inside parentheses may we always be and i’d go to a thousand churches just to marry you, just to marry you i’d walk through a thousand furnaces just to be with you, just to be with you cause i need nothing more than to walk right at your side and all i’d ever want is to love you my whole life and i’d go to a thousand churches just to marry you, just to marry you i’d walk through a thousand furnaces just to be with you, just to be with you
8.
i have loved you for a thousand moons waxing , waning on every breath of you times may change but this stays true that i have loved you for a thousand moons
9.
Here Anymore 03:54
the birds have all fled the trees bitter stones rotten the ground and what does that leave for me but to close my eyes, ash to groove, leveling does anyone hear anymore? does anyone stay any longer than a minute than an hour than a day ? is anyone here anymore? our palms lie barren and bruised from fields buried in thirst how to sew back the sinew unraveling axis eaten through and through does anyone hear anymore? does anyone stay any longer than a minute than an hour than a day ? is anyone here anymore? does anyone hear anymore? does anyone stay any longer than a minute than an hour than a day ? is anyone here anymore?

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released May 22, 2020

Words and Music by mesmi
Produced, Engineered and Mixed by mesmi
Additional Production by Albert Chiang
Mastered by Carl Saff
Photograph by Janis Yue
Art+Design by VATOCA

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mesmi - Vocals, Acoustic Guitar, Piano, Synths, Erhu, Drum programming, Arrangement, Sequencing
Albert Chiang - Electric Guitar on “Falling Too Far”
Joe Montague - Additional Drums on “Falling Too Far”
Steve Solomon - Piano on 3, 6, 7 (“Orchestrate,” “Falling Too Far,” “Two Roots”)

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