( i am ( where ) i am)

by mesmi

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Videos to accompany the EP being released weekly on Tuesdays.

0 : intro
youtu.be/Civ7OgnlhyQ

1 : heart so full
youtu.be/EOjH6q_LnOI

2 : ltbm
youtu.be/MVni2NmU7mI

3 : afraid of anything
youtu.be/GxYYVLgCkus

4 : winding road
youtu.be/Brd6rj_Tor8

5 : there will be
youtu.be/ntZ8AIgov3s

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released October 10, 2016

©℗ 2016 mesmi x music

All songs written and performed by mesmi
Produced, recorded and mixed by mesmi
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Album photography by Janis Yue
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Track Name: Afraid of Anything
i'm jumping
out of my skin
desperate to plunge in-
to something
to something

but the skin i'm in keeps
holding me back
as i weigh all the options
the options, the options

i'll edge right to the plunge
eyes closed, turn right around and run

turns out i'm afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
turns out i'm afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
anything that moves
anything that shakes its head at me
turns out i'm afraid of anything

guess all those words cut
deeper than i knew
anything to gain is now
something more to lose
but i can't be confined
by the lines of my own mind
got to reach for the breakthrough
and break through, to break through

turns out i'm afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
turns out i'm afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
anything that bites
anything that could make me happy
turns out i'm afraid of anything

turns out i'm afraid of anything,
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
hate how i'm afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
but one day… one day
i won't i won't i won't

won't be afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
won't be afraid of anything
afraid of anything, afraid of anything
and I'll dare to go
anywhere my heart can see
one day won't be afraid
of anything
Track Name: LTBM
staring hard at the rearview mirror
waving bye as they disappear
driving off to land in a brand new place,
so many people but not one familiar face

it's alright, knew you had to do this one day
it's alright, it's okay
gotta make it your own way

i'm learning to be myself by myself you see
i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t
deciphering exactly what it means
to stand on my own two feet
learning to be myself by myself

met a boy on the train downtown
started mingling to that city sound
going the same way and it felt so right
til he suddenly stopped stepped out and left
without even saying bye

it's alright, it's okay
he's probably making his own way
it's alright it's okay
gotta go it my own way

i'm learning to be myself by myself you see
i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t
deciphering exactly what it means
to stand on my own two feet
learning to be myself by myself

to be honest i like it
i'm not trying to fight it
no one to hold me but there's
no one to own me
just the self i was is so far away
and how this ends up,
i still can't say

but i'm learning to be myself by myself you see
i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t
deciphering exactly what it means
to stand on my own two fee-eet

learning to be myself by myself you see
i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t
deciphering exactly what it means
to stand on my own two fee~et

yeah i'm learning to be myself by myself
learning to be myself by myself
learning to be myself by myself
i'm learning to be myself by myself
Track Name: Heart So Full
Like a horse at the gate, chomping the bit
Like a creep at the door, don't know when to quit
Oh so ready for the stage, Thinking to yourself
"I can handle it, I can handle it"

You're looking for people to care for
Searching for someone special to wow
You've been working so hard
Shout, "World, don’t let me down"

CHORUS
You'd think with a heart so ful
You'd be somewhere by now, Have something to do
Have someone to see, Some place to be
With a heart so, A heart so
Full, with a heart so full
With a heart so full
With a heart so full

You were born with this hunger, to give all you got
Putting in your Rocky hours, Counting down the clock
Bursting at the seams
Flood forced to a trickling stream
Wonder does there come a time to stop?

You're looking for people to care for
Searching for someone special to wow
You've been working so hard
You can't give in now

CHORUS

Oh my fellow hearts, let's not give up
See true success, it's like making love
Gotta build it slow and sweet
Steady can't be in a rush
So just get ready to take and ready to make
All that love you got ready to give

CHORUS
Track Name: Winding Road
winding road
when will you straighten for me
when will you let me see beyond the bend

beyond the place I stand
beyond the ground at hand
where the river runs straight to the sea

it's a long way home
when you've got no sense of which way's north
runnin' circles again

all I ask is for a little guiding touch
don't leave me lost to my mind's own clutch

winding road, when will you straighten for me?
when will let me see where I'm to end

what I'm working toward
what I'm living for
what all this senselessness will come to mean

oh my empty heart, it can take no more of these false starts
leave you worse than before
listlessness, it has a face that erases mine
leaves no trace

winding road
when will you straighten for me
it's so hard to see where i'm to go

bound by the place I'm from
bound to the way I've come
waiting for some wish to set me free



winding road, when will you straighten for me
when will you let me see beyond the bend

beyond the place I stand
beyond the ground at hand
where the river runs straight to the sea

where the stars show clear through the trees
where all fears are taken to the breeze
when I will be
as I am
to be
Track Name: There Will Be (Acoustic Reprise)
There will be times they tear you down
There will be times they count you out
There will be times they call you a fool
There will be times you’re afraid it’s true

Count out the days, number the nights
Everything worthy is worth a good fight
Steady your pulse and set your face
The shouts you hear now are teaching you strength

Ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh ooh

Know that there will be,
There will be…

Yes there will be trials that test your faith
There will be points you fall from grace
More than your blood, beyond your bones,
Know who you are at the core of your soul

There will be hurt, there will be pain
But what hurts you now will you hold you up that day
There will be hurt, there will be pain
But what hurts you now will hold you up that day
(Repeated)

Ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh ooh